Really, i tell you with all frankness and truthfulness.. I wasn't the least happy when i received my results.. NOPE NOT AT ALL. Don't worry, i did fine.. :P really i think it was relatively well.. but at tt point of time.. in NYGH.. my grades seem to be paling in comparison to everyone's .. cos.. apparently.. having a perfect score is simply not good enuff.. they were comparing A1s. -_-" haha.. i, well, was less than perfect! haha .. so i felt really rotten.. like CRAP. yeps.. so i did start to cry and all.. you noe.. all the breaking down and crap. Seriously, now, when i look back, I think i had acted really stupidly 7hours ago. Cry... CRY FOR WHAT?

hmm.. mabbe its the sch culture? Anything less than perfect is rotten .. or something.. u noe.. like if u tell a person tt you got (>6) .. they'll go .. oh no, its ok.. u'll do better..... but i often forget tt compared to the whole of Singapore.. my grades are not bad at all.. Still.. it was mostly the self expectation .. and the Pride.. the face-value i could never put down and leave behind.

Why? hmm.. i can tell you why.. cos i was simply being blinded by issues of esteem, ego-ness, issues of comaprison with the people ard me.. tt i had forgotten to thank God for the Grace He has shown me.. I mean.. I could have gotten worse.. And .. I actually got a freaking A1 for my english and my physics! haha .. in case you did not noe.. these were like the banes of my life! haha *thinks of the time i was crying whilst studying physics...* Really, I thank God tt i'm still able to stay in VJC... I thank God tt I really did well for the subjects I used to get a B or even a C! I thank God for His wisdom and protection during the Exam period.. i noe how many times i've almost broke down whilst studying.. i thank God tt All my A1s came at the right subbies.. I thank God for His grace and Mercy.. I thank God for being Faithful.. I thank God.. for so many so many things...

I thank God for all the friends who smsed me before the results to wish me luck.. i thank God for the friends who gave me a shoulder to cry on, to lean on.. i thank God for friends who never gave up on me.. I thank God for people who showed concern to me throughout the day.. I thank God for my sqdmates who are so crappy..

So many, so many things .. I've gotta Give God the Glory!.. really.. i think i might have given up studying half way thru~~~~~~~~ SZE YING! DAJIE !!!!! REMEMBER HOW FREAKED AND STRESSED I WAS???? .. yup.. i was practically a walking zombie lor!.. yep.

So, now? I'm happy.. and relieved.. a bit sad too.. haha cos of self expectations.. other than tt.. real glad.. So now? MY new resolution? to really..hmmmmmmmmmm... Start being my mugger self. its time to MUG, my dear.. Jiaying, you've slacked for the past 2 months.. and now.. PLS GO BACK AND STUDY. yep.. gonna be in the fighting mode le.. esp when my bio and chem wasn't too good... heehee... *peng myself*

:::: MUGGER- MODING ::::

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 9:43 PM

Relatively Long title eh? haha .. well, blame it on my busy schedule.. i dun seem to be able to come online so often nowadays.. really busy sia.. so shall update abt a few days' events at one go! hahaha.. this is gonna be so crappy.. and i have yet to finish so much of my work la. i think i'm dead. One thing's for sure.. if u really thot tt VJ is really a slacker sch.. well..THINK AGAIN. the students may be slack.. but the teach's definitely not very slack ya? HW keeps on piling each day! so exciting sia! haha~thinks of block-the-screen teach. and mr Beetsma and abstract quantity... -_-"""""" ( i need more "han" then these...)

okie.. first thing first.

Reunion dinner (12/02/2005)
wah .. tt dae busy sia.. morning got kayaking, then i ruched to service.. and ended with a bang as i had reunion dinner!!!! wah~~~ i think xiaowei prob realised tt i;m pissed tt they started lao-ing the yu sheng w/o me tt's y they restacked the yu sheng n continued lao-ing the yu sheng with me!!! haah wateva the reason... i laoed the yu sheng! this is sure goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood. haha.. well, at least i was mentioning abt O'levels whilst laoing ... and tt i really wanna stay in VJ. *crosses fingers..and pray really hard!*Btw.. squaddies.. u guys are still the best bunch of peeps ard man! haha..and xw's dad can really cook like superbly..the fried rice!!!!! ahha!!! i wanna eat more! I'm positive tt i must have gained weight..during this festive season.. *more running jiaying..more running!!!!!!* haha ~

and yesh..my dear squaddies did live up to their names.. 9 of us there.. finished food for meant for 15 pple?? if i'm not wrong. but .. yea.. we finished almost everything.. the fried rice was gone, a whole tub of icecream which we thot we would nv finish was gone too... 0_o ok.. diet everybody! DIET. haha.. nah.i'll nv be able to diet..so lack of self discipline *sheepish grin*

then the drinking started.. i dun drink .. so i watched pple drink.. well.. they claimed tt they were not getting drink.. but 2 of them started toking incoherently .. and a particular someone started feeling warm.. haha.. i think mabbe not brunk yet.. but would be quite a sight if they were! haha/... then can dig up all those inside info they've been trying to hide.. :P haha *so notty!!!!* j/k la! will respect ur privacy one.. but if u accidentally blurt out something.. then ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
nothing to do with me. haha

then we had a mini start gazing session whilst waiting for the bus to come.. wah.. the feeling was great la.. not like very noisy or what.. just lying down beside each other.. looking up into the sky and started toking.. no specific tops.. just tok. haha i'm a total sucker for simple pleasures.. who isn't? haha~

Kayaking (12-13/02/2005)
This was pretty fun la! Got to noe many more new fwens.. and guess wad. I'm sunburnt again la! and so, if u notice.. kayaking was act. before the dinner la.. so ummm, tho i did not drink, i looked positively drunk la.. cos i was totally RED. R.E.D to the neck. haha then now? i;m so tanned la! and my fwens were like -_-" jiaying!!!! wad happened to you? and my "dear" fwen, DENNIS. called me an indian .. nothing wrong with tt la.. just tt i happen to be a Chinese! CHINESE. thX arh.. really nothing wrong with other races k.. just tt .. i'm a chinese.. so to be mistaken or called as another race hmm.. is not very nice ya.. ahaha.. dennis, THX ARH.

Think tt my kayaking skills improved le!! and i've got my cert.. quite tempted to get a 2star cert.. we'll see how much i'll be able to save first.. haha.. and i still wanna get a guitar of my own.. WAIT. Jiaying, WAIT.

Vday/fwenship Day (14/02/2005)
haha .. anione of u out there has got a date? haa .. tt day super exciting sia! haha.. hmmmm, received alot of stuff... chocs (which i carn eat cause i got sore throat!!!-_-") , flowers, crafts, cookies and biscuits(courtesy of clara and ash...VOTE FOR CLARA and ZHIYONG!) and oso received stuff even after Vday la.. damn touched.. and i miss jasmine's granny!!!!!haha.. tt's besides the pt.. ok..

Act i had plans one la.. wanted to go out with Cg.. in the end too tired le.. so i went home.. and Sleep. haha.. then woke up to pia bio. Wow.. my life rox la.. haha my Vday! haha too bad, so sad. heehee..

Others
I cannot believe Kwang Xiong is act my angel cum mortal! I feel totally stupid la.. like everyone in Senior class noe le la.. and i'm still in the dark.. well Kwang Xiong.. i noe you're MORE THAN FWENS with errr-hem! haha.. heeeeee... getting you the wallet soon.. so wait up!

haha tt's all le.. gonna go running m with sam.. aiya.. its the aftermath of CNY. this is bad sia.. fri got dragon dance and sat got cai qing! haha excited for it.. and JTS cuming.. wah.. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed me pocket!

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 10:59 PM

Gong Xi Gong Xi Gong Xi ni ya! haha its CNY DAY 2!! So i'm just gonna update on CNY reunion dinners as well as CNY Day1!.. haha wad an exiting day for me.. i bet i'm gonna gain weight like nv b4..but what the heck.. its New Year! haha... but i hope i'll have the discipline to go jogging later! hah ... i tink i can continue hoping.. haha

Reunion dinner no. 1 (7th Feb)
Whee!!! my reunion with papa's family.. wow! We went to this seafood restaurant.. we ate lotsa food la.. there was the yu sum, crabbies, prawnies, fishies.. chickenies... and the fake shark's fin soup. Well.. it was great la.. we kinda shared lotsa crappy jokes across the table.. haha.. all those lame jokes.. we exchanged them with xiao gu and da gu.. mummy got too bored to my lamity.. haha. So anws, it was really quite some fun! haha.. different fr the past yrs reunion dinner..

And the most exciting part was tt Hui Ying jie jie let me in into her secret!!!! haha .. which is? She got herself a bike behind xiao gu's back.. and she'll be taking me out for a spin! haha .. how cool is tt. haha.. A bike leh! and she wans to buy a new one le.. upgrade ba.. haha .. think tt she really like riding bikes.. wonder how xiao gu would react if she sees huiying jie on one. I think xiao gu might just flip ba! but anw.. Hui ying jie's totally rocking man!

(ok.. pop's cuming my way.. better change window lest he sees this part...)

Reunion dinner no. 2 (8th Feb)
Its food feast at Ah kim and san jiu's place!!! Well.. there was of cos, the presence of Dayi's and Ah kim's ngoh hiang! haha some thing all the children and adults loved to eat la... andsteamboat.. haha which i really really really ate a lot. This is so bad.. had i not stated tt i really ate a lot this CNY? (meanwhile, jiaying went off to sneak in another 3 pineapple tarts into her mouth.. she stopped munching only when she rmbed tt she had X-country...this fri..)*oops* ok fine! yep..not tt i feel hungry la.. just very vey chan zui. and this is like bad... 0_O

Well dinner was good la.. and i was really enjoying the lion dance and DRAGON DANCE on TV! haha they are like so pro la.. i hope NY can be so pro too! *hopes wishes and prays* ahha And my cousins have all grown up.. tsk tsk.. Goh Si Hui really big boy le.. voice oso break le.. and tok to girls oso so shy.. haha .. quite.. weird la.. cos we grew up fighting la.. like literally biting each other and punching ... hahah!!!!

CNY Day 1
Started the day by gg uncle vincent's place!!!! heehee.. went there to .. umm.. eat again! ate the annual mee sua.. *happy* haha .. and had lotsa CNY goodies.. then i went to sit on the sofa.. then it became lying on the sofa.. till i finally fell asleep on the sofa. Like Wow.. haha .. then pa and jie poked me to wake up me up to go da yi;s place to bai nian...

Well.. da yi';s place is another food haven. I ate a lot. A LOT. Well, i did help to prepare the food k.. i had to chop up those pieces of meat! ... haha .. well.. as per nomal.. the guys were all slacking la.. and the girls were all preparing the food... -_-" tok abt equality?

oh yea.. and many kussies are getting married.. or already married.. or already have children le..--- tt makes me an auntie... *recalls Christie calling me "biao yi"* -_-" ok.. i feel so old.. and i carn believe ah ??? kor kor is 31 this yr.. haha *sowees.. i have trouble rmbing...* and ah bin kor kor is getting ROM.. oh yea.. might as well say tt many kors are ROM-ing this yr.. haha so ... *jie, when is it gonna be your turn?* haha!!!!

CNY Day 2
Well, tt's today.. TODAY.. and i've been diligently trying to complete my bio .. when i decided to slack.. and was once again distracted by love hina on Tv.. WOW. haha.. gg off le.. gotta bathe and visit lao kor's place!!! ahaha .. happy new year pple!

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 10:09 AM

For Some nice reason.. I like being in VJC. haha.. ITS OFFICIAL! If i can stay, i'll stay! haha *anione of you out there who wanna crash VJ .. haha find me!* heehee. I dunno la.. for first time in like my 4 years .. the environment in VJ is a .. surprisingly non-political school. I mean, as of yet. Despite the relatively large interest in sexual connatations and of cos, SCANDALS (thinks of physics lessons with Mr Beetsma and tt Block-the-screen-block-the-screen teacher), The school is a relatively, rather "pure school". Or at least, so it seems to me! haha Of cos, i've heard about some horror stories about the discrimination of cheeenaaa kias in VJ.. I thank God tt my class is a true blue, (well with the exception of one or two englandos and ash... hie ash!!!! haha ~~~) Cheena-kiddosified class!!! .. well, shall i say it again? S16 roX! heehee

Yep.. in nanyang.. everything is a political fight. Almost everything you said would be considered twice.. sometimes even thrice.. People are always and forever searching for the second meaning..behind your very very very SIMPLE sentences. haha .. as in VJ? .. hmm not yet not yet.. but i;m cure it'll prob start soon. It's like.. now, no one is guarding no one. In NY.. hmm barriers are always around. Okok.. not all the time though.. Its like.. sometimes.. haha .. with my Squad.. its not tt bad.. We just tok wad we wanna tok. I hope... haha ... dun think they'll stab me.. hope tt i've not stabbed anione yet.. ( act.. i think i have .. like tok tok tok tok tok tok and nv use brain.. then in the end spurt out some crap la.) To my victims.. i'm sorry. I really am. You noe how brainless i can really get.

Well now, its an all new brand new environment. Rock on! And i'm striving for the better.. thinking more positively now.. and yep.. hope to change and "be a better man". haha .. ok .. off i go for my dinner.. just a really really short update on wassup.

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 7:09 PM

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