A journey, an odyssey.

Monday, March 07, 2005

Jia Ying's CoNfusED!

Well.. i don't know what am i confused over. Waha! but aniwaes.. i'm just .. trying to blog once more.. haha! the last time i blogged, a week ago! now? .. hmm.. perpetual slacking my way thru ba! .. haha this is bad..

aniwaes.. events of the week includes
1. Choosing of Sch (headache!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
2. Hwa Chu Talentine (disappointment~~~~)
3. Full day Slacker (tt's like right now)

ok.. here goes.. nothing!

1.Wah!!! i was stuck between the choices of Hwa Chong and VJ.. which should i go to? .. hmmm.. i decided to stay on in Vj.. not cross over to Hwa Chu.. but i can tell u, Hc is a very good temptation . why? firstly, its an environment which i'm freaking familiar with. I do not need to adapt to the people there le.. and no. 2 i really miss my friends. Serioualy, as much as i hate NY, i miss NY. This is so contradicting. But well, women are meant to be fickle -- ain't they? haha. And all the brothers say --amen. -_-" haha~ Ok, dun crap. Yep.. then, at the smae time, in VJ, i was starting to see more of her flaws-- i saw many people dissing other schs , so many snobs and all. Not a good impression . But .. as chiew shan says.. there are peole like there everywhere.. not only in VJ. TRUE. SO TRUE. haha!.. i mean there are prob. sometimes when i can get really irritating, and do really silly things that hurt others. I noe i've hurt many people, esp when i get very emotional. Haha.. like who? well, u guys should noe it yourself. I'm sorry if i've ever did before. Aniwaes, back to the topic. I was like having both the push and the pull facs. (geog!) yep.. So to me, at tt very moment, HC seemed like a very feasible option to consider. SO well, i was wavering in my stand to stay in VJ. my final decision?I'm staying for good.

I wonder if this is good or bad. For one, VJ is near my place, and the people there are mad.. and i've got relatively nice seniors.. think of OG.. 04 seniors... ok la.. haha! .. they're nice. And the t4eachers there are quite funky too, they can either be very smiley (mr martin louis sylvester beetsma) or quite swingy (ms ng) or very sweet (ms chen) and of cos, quite intellectual and motherly at the same time ( mrs teo). Ok, i admit, i really do not noe why i like VJ. perhaps, its the laidbackness, which i so hate, and yet i noe this is the kind of system i have to be under, esp when i'm definitely not a stress taker.. (thx mad and joe your prezzie have certainly come in handy!). So yep, i guess tt's why. Cos, when i;m under stress i'll go realatively mad, insane and super emotional.

TT's JUST ME GG DEMENTED

ok, not the point again.. right now my resolution? told u in my previous post- study hard and all, gonna strive to finish all my CIP work by this year. :P and build up my portfolio ba.. I dunno how or when or what... i just Pray tt God would gimme the capacity to carry out so many things. I need my S papers.

2. Talentine. Its fine la.. ok lor.. then wad else u wan me to sae? N.U.T.S did not win probably because of the technical faults and stuff la.. so umm.. unlucky ba. thot they were better than the guest performance!:P mabbe i'm bias or something, but i do seriously think they are better. haha ! aniwaes, L.O.V.E won.. they are good k.. and prob just tt.. the solo winner was not bad too.. aiya..but i felt tt $8 for a talentine show is really .. ummmmmmmmm, EXPENSIVE. i mean it! if not for yan yan and maddie.. i wouldn't even BOTHER.

.. aniwaes. so paisae, so many chou shi happened to me, i fell down on the stairs, i kept hitting the guy in front of me and all .. haha so silly of me la i carn believe that i did all those la.. haha.. the best thing was probably that i saw pei nee !!!! haha cannot believe tt she is wei jie's classmate.. sigh.. haha .. i realised something-- i really cannot click with those of the same class .. i can only be a very touch-and-go fwen.. lke an aquaintaince ( issit spelt liddat?) .. no strong relationships with the class.. do i regret it? well.. i don't think so, cos if i had been closer to my class mates, i wouldn't have been so close with my squadmates... haha.. but i still do love my classmates, no matter how i've nv been close to them la. haha .. u guys out there take care.. :P

3. Well, i'm at home sianning now, cos the whole bunch of VJ-NY girls pang sehed. they all got smething on last minute, so the farewell thingy was cancelled.. and i'm not too interested in going to ECP to play with my classsmates.. just wanna stay at home, read my stuff.. watch my stuff.. and study a little.. :P haha just wanna really spend some time with myself, and tok to myself and all. I noe i prob sound like the most boring person in the world, but really, the past few weeks have been hectic for me.. keep gg out for seminars, gg out to fellowhip, gg out with squaddies .. haha ... i need a mini break. And i think this is it. haha.. gonna have fun by myself! ahha .. quite excited actually :P haha ok fine, i'm perpetually mad.

Ani thing else?
oh yea, my sincere apologises to those who i've dissed when i was getting my Os result. I'm so sorry. Dun stay pissed k.. love ya!

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 10:18 AM

VISION AND DREAMS

Paeds Specialist!
I can do the impossible! :)

SHORT TERM GOALS

1. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
-- I wanna start cultivating good habits like prayer and fasting as a NECESSARY, ESSENTIAL part of my daily lifestyle

2. I wanna groom myself well
-- no more,sloppy behaviour, only appropriate behaviour. Must up another level!!!!

3. Dance like I've never danced before
-- I want to take dance really seriously. SERIOUSLY.

4. Serve more in ministry
-- enough of casual, convenient Christianity already.

MID TERM GOALS

1. Do Well in NUS Year 1
-- get into Dean's List and SEP!!! Jia You!

2. Learn L.A. Hip Hop!

3. Rise up to be a Leader in a Ministry :)

4. Save up for SOT!!!! $$$

LONG TERM GOALS

Get into GMS!!!
I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me!