A journey, an odyssey.

Friday, December 30, 2005

Packing up a bag of untruths and going on a guilt trip.. will be returning-- via the bus of repentance

I LIED. God, i lied. I LIED!!! argh.. i hate to lie... as much as i hate liars. To be exact, i did not really lie.. but i spoke in a manner which i intended the person to assume, oh my yuck. the remorse is almost unbearable. Its sickening and disgusting and appalling. TOTAL PUT OFF.

Anyway, i feel so argh-ed. ARGHed. ARGHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahha... yea .. i admit.. i did have an issure of lying in the past tt's y now.. i try my best to not even lie... and when i do.. i feel .. yucked. pooey. YUCK!

Why is there a need to lie? to keep a front? to protect urself.. to keep yourself out of trouble.. to harm others? in the first place why do something tt's not right tt u have to lie to coverup? .. hmm... well well perhaps its better to do things that's not against ur own conscience.. yep... arghed. IRRITATED.

oh well..argh.. need to change
>.<

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 1:38 AM

ME, what I aim to be...

A Writer.
A seeker.
A thinker.
A learner.
A disciple.

Verse of the Season

~ Calla Lillies

Quote of the Season

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

VISION AND DREAMS

Paeds Specialist!
I can do the impossible! :)

SHORT TERM GOALS

1. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
-- I wanna start cultivating good habits like prayer and fasting as a NECESSARY, ESSENTIAL part of my daily lifestyle

2. I wanna groom myself well
-- no more,sloppy behaviour, only appropriate behaviour. Must up another level!!!!

3. Dance like I've never danced before
-- I want to take dance really seriously. SERIOUSLY.

4. Serve more in ministry
-- enough of casual, convenient Christianity already.

MID TERM GOALS

1. Do Well in NUS Year 1
-- get into Dean's List and SEP!!! Jia You!

2. Learn L.A. Hip Hop!

3. Rise up to be a Leader in a Ministry :)

4. Save up for SOT!!!! $$$

LONG TERM GOALS

Get into GMS!!!
I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me!