Recently i feel a bit lost in what i'm doing. A bit like losing direction and keep drifting with the flow.. just a lil girl stuck in a whole wide world kind of feeling. Feeling more and more emotions, yet being hopelessly emotionless myself. Sounds like some kind of sick irony, i suppose. I do not deny. I['m expecting not many to be able to comprehend this piece of writing anyway. Perhaps, this is just reflective of this little inner turmoil within myself. I find myself harder to comprehend myself. Prehaps, really, this is a time of tough chastening. God is indeed showing me sides of myself tt even i have yet to see. Like the really selfish side of me. Was toking to jiejie one day, she revealed to me tt i really have this habit of choosing who to like and who to detest. And this really caused me to have this really ai hen fen ming personality. For one, God said i am to love all people. Yet, i'm already finding it hard in my capacity to love someone whom i'm supposed to. Yes, i ought to find direction soon enough.

Nuff said about some general thought life.. let's go on to the new year!

Reunion #1:
B35
Was out with my squadmates one fine day. No offence, but i find it very tiring.. because of one incident some people got a little upset, and hence the mood was no doubt dampened. If u ask me, i find it a little sad, because, seriously, the whole point of oing out to no matter which place.. its final purpose ois just to spend quality with each other. in fact, in all tt i wanted from the meeting was just to spend time with my friends.on the contrary, i had to coax and try to bring the entire mood up. Tried so hard that in the end, my own mood went down. Wow. haha. Thank God the mood later was much better. However, the feeling was different. It felt somehow strange and different, no longer the closeness tt i had been anticipating for. No longer that warm fuzzy feeling i had hoped it offered, in exchange, i had remarks on how short my skirt was and how lian i m. ok... perhaps, my dressing did change, but if u noe me long enough and had been toking to me through the year, perhaps, u would like to enlighten me on whether my character have changed. More importantly than the physical parts of me, i would like to noe about my inner being. Joe's right. the next reunion, instead of having two entirely different group of friends, let's just keep it small.

Nuff on the negatives, i don't deny tt i got to noe some people more. Guolu, jas. tey were more interesting than i thought they were. :) or rather, i could tok to them more than i expected to tok to them.

oh well.

Reunion #2:
Family

Interestingly, we're the same! haha, just tt i ate a lot more this reunion. *sheepish grin.. ni guan wo!* haha, just tt we;re more mature now, a lot more intellectual talk than on the surface shallow tok. haha... Aunt Elizabeth has a yo-yo-black husband with a yo-yo-bling-bling black baby... awwwwww CUTE!!!!!!!! haha... he smiles when i tickle hahah (duh! )on mummy's side... just the usual.. and the kids are in this puberty stage when they dun dare to tok to girls. Been there, done that! haha, so its time to look at the kids and think about how i used to react. Interestingly blur! haha... oh well

Reunion #3"
Cell Group

its tmr. :P

Reunion #4:
Classmates cum juniors

basically its supposed to be on fri, jts. Whee!

Reunion #5
squadmates squaddies

this sun! :P


watch out world! i'm cuming at ya with maclaurin's series!

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 8:18 PM

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A learner.
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I can do the impossible! :)

1. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
-- I wanna start cultivating good habits like prayer and fasting as a NECESSARY, ESSENTIAL part of my daily lifestyle

2. I wanna groom myself well
-- no more,sloppy behaviour, only appropriate behaviour. Must up another level!!!!

3. Dance like I've never danced before
-- I want to take dance really seriously. SERIOUSLY.

4. Serve more in ministry
-- enough of casual, convenient Christianity already.

1. Do Well in NUS Year 1
-- get into Dean's List and SEP!!! Jia You!

2. Learn L.A. Hip Hop!

3. Rise up to be a Leader in a Ministry :)

4. Save up for SOT!!!! $$$

Get into GMS!!!
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