A journey, an odyssey.

Friday, March 16, 2007

Grandpapa

So many things happened within te past week, its like a hirlwind, and e myself have been sinking in mud, being rather lethargic, unable to drag myself to do anything much constructive. the only thing I've probably done good is probably to set out what i want to apply for. the next step? I need to make sure of what course i'm going to sign up for, as well as penning my personal statement. And Hopefully, Mr Lee would help me edit it. but oh well. lots to do, but my brain's not spinning. And i'm not reading the Bible faithfully this week. Which is quite a horror, cos no revelation spilling in.

I don't know what to feel how to feel. Gong gong passed away. I want to rememeber him, so much. He used to have a big stomach, he had a cheeky smile, like my dad's. suddenly, i have so much to write, from the times when i was just a youngin' to a teenage, to the day I saw him on the hospital bed accepting Christ. It was like, I never thought he was going to leave. I thought he would be with us forever. But of cos, this is the danger of taking things for granted.

So meanwhile, all of us are busying ourselves with the last expenses, I try to compose, and yea. Tinges of greif do creep up as i walk past his coffin, looking at the body lying in it. The man inside looks no longer familiar. I don;t know the body anymore. It is lifeless, far from the cheeky (or as papa, gugu would call : "pai si") gong gong I have.

whie I try to contain my grief, the only friends that came only to be with me were my church friends. Suddenly, the words of whom i thought was my good friend sounded like arsenic personified : "I think I don't go la, I've never seen your grandfather". i guess that some people just don't realise that when You go for a funeral, its not just for the dead, it is also for the deceased's family.

Brilliant.

Written and pondered over, but emotional at 6:16 PM

VISION AND DREAMS

Paeds Specialist!
I can do the impossible! :)

SHORT TERM GOALS

1. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
-- I wanna start cultivating good habits like prayer and fasting as a NECESSARY, ESSENTIAL part of my daily lifestyle

2. I wanna groom myself well
-- no more,sloppy behaviour, only appropriate behaviour. Must up another level!!!!

3. Dance like I've never danced before
-- I want to take dance really seriously. SERIOUSLY.

4. Serve more in ministry
-- enough of casual, convenient Christianity already.

MID TERM GOALS

1. Do Well in NUS Year 1
-- get into Dean's List and SEP!!! Jia You!

2. Learn L.A. Hip Hop!

3. Rise up to be a Leader in a Ministry :)

4. Save up for SOT!!!! $$$

LONG TERM GOALS

Get into GMS!!!
I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me!